waiting

hey all
this week wasn't the best of weeks... it was full of anxiety and waiting ... and it is STILL full of anxiety and waiting. maybe i should explain myself better.
ok so remember last week when i said i can go to Glasgow? well today had a meeting with the erasmus chair man and i find out that at the last minute 2 people applied ... now i'm back to square one because i don't knw if im going or not!!! and i just want to knw! PFFF i hate waiting for these things! not to mention this means i am now in competition with my best friend ... which is something i wanted to avoid! well we'll have to see i guess. i really hope i go... i really, really hope i go! but i know that if i don't get chosen.. it would be for the best, yea, ill be upset for a couple of days but life goes on. either way i have an equal chance of getting in then i have of not getting in.
Ok so i made those phonecalls finally! i actually met one social worker today - she was SO NICE! i loved talking to her! tomorrow im supposed to meet someone else so we'll see if he is just as nice.
I'm on my way to finishing these formalities.. im actually really looking forward to writing this thesis! i hope i'll feel the same way when im half way through lol.
Anyways enough for today.. hopefully by th time i next write i will know if im going to glasgow and if i passed from my exam (the one i took last week)! we'll see!
much love
xxxx