i feel empty.
I dont know y, but i just do. I feel like nothing is in my hands and everything is spinning out of control.
I'm not depressed. I'm just empty. Can anyone else understand what i mean, it's hard to put into words. It's like I have nothing to live for and everything to lose and nothing to gain.
I miss everything about living alone in Glasgow and then the next second i'm so glad i'm back home.
I miss everyone and nobody at the same time. I want to move forward but i dont want to simultaneously.
in circa 8 months i qualify and enter the working world. I've been in this career for 3 years and suddenly i'm doubting that this is what i want. I dont know what i want any more. i LOVE, LOVE social work... yet i am so doubtful about everything!
I'm usually so certain in my life choices... why is this happening to me? What is going on? is this a phase? Is this what being a final student means?
I need to see the bigger picture.
I need to see the light at the end of a very dark tunnel.
Whatever it is that is missing... i just hope i find it soon...
much love,
xxx
Wednesday, November 11, 2009
Monday, September 28, 2009
summer is over
........ and what a summer it has been!!
I knw, i know i havent written ANYTHING about Glasgow.... I loved it so much and it was the best experience of my life (so far... hoping i will have some more good experiences lol)
What can i say? everything worked out, i did brilliantly at my placement (loved it all so much, the colelagues, the kids - they were disabled but the sweetest ever) I just loved Glasgow's atmosphere, i loved the people (ever so friendly) i just LOVED it! I had some downs though... i had some arguments with my room mate (not very bad ones, just regular conflicts) and my landlady was a total nightmare, however overall it was great! Much to my surprise i didnt have any problems what so ever with the accent, in fact i picked it up myself! it went away though as fast as it came!
I came home just a week ago, and i am so confused about being back home, i loved seeing my family, my pets and my house but i am back to the Maltese mentality, doing things to get something in return, and the ignorance of the popolace. I feel so weird here, like something is wrong - i am much more critical of Malta now, and i feel so out of place, like i just don't belong. My mother was telling me i have changed, and i have.. living on your own in another country does something to you, it changes you and really opens your eyes. It changes you for the better... for sure.
OVerall i am glad i'm back with the family and my friends... however i wish i was still in sauchiehall street and in buchanan galleries! haha.
much love to all
xxxx
I knw, i know i havent written ANYTHING about Glasgow.... I loved it so much and it was the best experience of my life (so far... hoping i will have some more good experiences lol)
What can i say? everything worked out, i did brilliantly at my placement (loved it all so much, the colelagues, the kids - they were disabled but the sweetest ever) I just loved Glasgow's atmosphere, i loved the people (ever so friendly) i just LOVED it! I had some downs though... i had some arguments with my room mate (not very bad ones, just regular conflicts) and my landlady was a total nightmare, however overall it was great! Much to my surprise i didnt have any problems what so ever with the accent, in fact i picked it up myself! it went away though as fast as it came!
I came home just a week ago, and i am so confused about being back home, i loved seeing my family, my pets and my house but i am back to the Maltese mentality, doing things to get something in return, and the ignorance of the popolace. I feel so weird here, like something is wrong - i am much more critical of Malta now, and i feel so out of place, like i just don't belong. My mother was telling me i have changed, and i have.. living on your own in another country does something to you, it changes you and really opens your eyes. It changes you for the better... for sure.
OVerall i am glad i'm back with the family and my friends... however i wish i was still in sauchiehall street and in buchanan galleries! haha.
much love to all
xxxx
Friday, June 26, 2009
Malta
With me going away soon (sniff!) I have come appreciate my home country much more!
Here are some photos of Malta an y i love it! no, unfortunately I cannot take credit for taking these photos... my friend took them.
This an overview of the port (south of Malta).
I love the old winding streets. Mind you, not all streets are like these! but are only found in the really old towns.
I pass by these houses everyday, however when i c them in a photo they look really lovely!
Such a beautiful sun set!
Here are some photos of Malta an y i love it! no, unfortunately I cannot take credit for taking these photos... my friend took them.
This an overview of the port (south of Malta).
I love the old winding streets. Mind you, not all streets are like these! but are only found in the really old towns.
I pass by these houses everyday, however when i c them in a photo they look really lovely!
Such a beautiful sun set!
Sunday, June 21, 2009
summer!
ahhh! it's finally summer! the season we await with the such anticipation has finally arrived.
with it brings (and i will probably be mentioning this even more often) the whole Glasgow experience .... in 2 weeks!!!!!
How am i feeling about it?
Oh gosh, i feel like a pregnant woman (yea i knw... how would i know, i've never been pregnant lol)- my emotions seem to be everywhere and i can't understand them.
I have adjusted to Glasgow by going through complete different phases. When i first heard about it, another 4 students were interested so i was really keen on getting in, and when i was finally chosen - i was over the moon happy and excited like you wouldn't believe.
Then when the preparations started i was starting to lose heart and think i will never end up going after all because i couldnt find accommodation, and it was coming soooo expensive.
then once i figured EVERYTHING out, i was feeling totally excited, and really looking forward.
Which brings me to the current phase...
one of complete and utter fear and regret, i can't believe i'm saying this but i don't even want to go now. It hit me how much i'm going to miss my parents, my home life, my friends, my surroundings. Saying that i am completely sad and depressed is an understatment. I am definitely not backing out now, coz i'm sure i'm feeling normal emotions, but i just want everything i guess. I want to go to Glasgow but i dont want to leave my life behind for 3 months. I'm not too sure about my friend, the one who is coming with me, we are very good friends but you know what they say- u see a person's true colours when you live with them! So for this - i am very nervous. Not to mention we are 2 completely and utterly different persons!
Then there is the job... I hope i'll be good. I'm nervous i won't be able to cope and that i would just simply be a BAD social worker.
Then there is the Thesis worry... I'm quite ahead actually but still so scared i won't finish on time or do a good job.
I hope these fears are unfounded. I'm so thankful of the support i have at home and with my friends. I seriously do not know what i would do without them.
And of course to this blog who i actually write my trials and triumphs to... and i'm sure will continue to do so.
much love y'all
xxxx
PS if u read through this rant you seriously deserve a gold medal! :)
with it brings (and i will probably be mentioning this even more often) the whole Glasgow experience .... in 2 weeks!!!!!
How am i feeling about it?
Oh gosh, i feel like a pregnant woman (yea i knw... how would i know, i've never been pregnant lol)- my emotions seem to be everywhere and i can't understand them.
I have adjusted to Glasgow by going through complete different phases. When i first heard about it, another 4 students were interested so i was really keen on getting in, and when i was finally chosen - i was over the moon happy and excited like you wouldn't believe.
Then when the preparations started i was starting to lose heart and think i will never end up going after all because i couldnt find accommodation, and it was coming soooo expensive.
then once i figured EVERYTHING out, i was feeling totally excited, and really looking forward.
Which brings me to the current phase...
one of complete and utter fear and regret, i can't believe i'm saying this but i don't even want to go now. It hit me how much i'm going to miss my parents, my home life, my friends, my surroundings. Saying that i am completely sad and depressed is an understatment. I am definitely not backing out now, coz i'm sure i'm feeling normal emotions, but i just want everything i guess. I want to go to Glasgow but i dont want to leave my life behind for 3 months. I'm not too sure about my friend, the one who is coming with me, we are very good friends but you know what they say- u see a person's true colours when you live with them! So for this - i am very nervous. Not to mention we are 2 completely and utterly different persons!
Then there is the job... I hope i'll be good. I'm nervous i won't be able to cope and that i would just simply be a BAD social worker.
Then there is the Thesis worry... I'm quite ahead actually but still so scared i won't finish on time or do a good job.
I hope these fears are unfounded. I'm so thankful of the support i have at home and with my friends. I seriously do not know what i would do without them.
And of course to this blog who i actually write my trials and triumphs to... and i'm sure will continue to do so.
much love y'all
xxxx
PS if u read through this rant you seriously deserve a gold medal! :)
Saturday, May 30, 2009
exams
long time no update!
I've been so busy. too busy.
too many assignments
too much to study
SO much stress
A thesis to write
Personal problems to take care of
Shopping needing to be done
Dealing with emotions about Glasgow
... just too much to handle...
so i've been a way for a while.
BUT
I'M BACK!
My last exam is on Thursday
and then i plan to:
Swim,
Relax,
Have fun,
Catch up with my friends
AND
work on thesis (the down part, i know)
Until then i'll cu later!
much love!
xxx
I've been so busy. too busy.
too many assignments
too much to study
SO much stress
A thesis to write
Personal problems to take care of
Shopping needing to be done
Dealing with emotions about Glasgow
... just too much to handle...
so i've been a way for a while.
BUT
I'M BACK!
My last exam is on Thursday
and then i plan to:
Swim,
Relax,
Have fun,
Catch up with my friends
AND
work on thesis (the down part, i know)
Until then i'll cu later!
much love!
xxx
Tuesday, May 12, 2009
beauty
Every one who knows me knows that i like to watch the top model series, especially the australian and canadian versions. I dont love the show, but i like to watch it because it is interesting to understand other people's perceptions on beauty.
This is just a composition of my thoughts on what beauty means to me.
What is beauty?
BEauty is the look of happiness on a young child's face when she finds her doll
Beauty is the sound of laughter
Beauty is the taste of an exotic food, delicious and beckoning
BEauty is the feeling of love
BEauty can change
It isn't fixed
It is in the eye of the beholder
Beauty is who you are
Beauty is art
Beauty can be the face of a lady, seen by a lover
Or a well run sewer system, seen by a worker
Or even the purr of a cat, heard by a lonely woman
Beauty can be anything to anyone
It can be the sound of music, ringing in the ears from a soprano's melodius note
Or the beat of a rap star
beauty is who you are
It is what you believe
It raises you above the world
It is something even greates
It is the dream of Martin Luther King, Jr.
It is the declaration of equality
it is the sound of prayer
Beauty can be simpler, too
A little girl on the playground, watching a crowd taunting her
But standing firm as a rock, solid, strong, not afraid of anything
It is a smile
Asqueeze of the hand to say 'I'm here, it's alright'
Beauty is who YOU are
When you don't let anyone push you down
and when you can say " I am me, I can see the beauty of the world
I am the beholder
I am beautiful"
Just some thoughts. What does beauty mean to you?
much love y'all
xxxx
This is just a composition of my thoughts on what beauty means to me.
What is beauty?
BEauty is the look of happiness on a young child's face when she finds her doll
Beauty is the sound of laughter
Beauty is the taste of an exotic food, delicious and beckoning
BEauty is the feeling of love
BEauty can change
It isn't fixed
It is in the eye of the beholder
Beauty is who you are
Beauty is art
Beauty can be the face of a lady, seen by a lover
Or a well run sewer system, seen by a worker
Or even the purr of a cat, heard by a lonely woman
Beauty can be anything to anyone
It can be the sound of music, ringing in the ears from a soprano's melodius note
Or the beat of a rap star
beauty is who you are
It is what you believe
It raises you above the world
It is something even greates
It is the dream of Martin Luther King, Jr.
It is the declaration of equality
it is the sound of prayer
Beauty can be simpler, too
A little girl on the playground, watching a crowd taunting her
But standing firm as a rock, solid, strong, not afraid of anything
It is a smile
Asqueeze of the hand to say 'I'm here, it's alright'
Beauty is who YOU are
When you don't let anyone push you down
and when you can say " I am me, I can see the beauty of the world
I am the beholder
I am beautiful"
Just some thoughts. What does beauty mean to you?
much love y'all
xxxx
Sunday, May 3, 2009
21st bday
So i am now 21! and legally an adult everywhere in the world. I can drink, party hard and generally have no restrictions what so ever!
How do i feel?
Pretty much the same as i felt 2 days ago lol. I guess the whole 21 business will hit soon.
How was my bday yesterday?
just one word:
FANTASTIC!!!!
Just a sum up of my bday weekend:
Friday i spent with the family at my mum's school (they had their summer fair going on and i was selling tea and coffee from 10.30- 3)
In the evening we went out to eat chinese.
Saturday morning i went to Sliema (the major shopping town in Malta were all the brand named shops are; Zara, Topshop, BHS, MArks and Spencers etc etc) To spend my bday cash and so that my sis buys me a bday gift. I got a ton of clothes and things i totally need for Glasgow.
In the afternoon i just chilled and took a longggg shower and did my hair.
In the evening i went out with my best friends from a great meal ( and a surprise cake - chocolate with the best icing EVER!) I was so touched by their actions and their words on the card that they gave me and the presents. They moved me to tears. I was just so grateful that i had friends as great as them. Thank you gusy so much, for a great evening and a great bday! really one of the best!
Sunday - Well lol it is kind of slow today all i did was vacuum our house and mop the floor. But my dad - being the greatest chef that i know- is preparing a meal for my and my family, which i really can't wait to eat!
All in all, i was expecting this bday to b a downer and totally quiet. But i was so surprised that it wasn't! It was actually one of my best bdays, and definitely one i'm gonna remember!
xxxxx
much love!
How do i feel?
Pretty much the same as i felt 2 days ago lol. I guess the whole 21 business will hit soon.
How was my bday yesterday?
just one word:
FANTASTIC!!!!
Just a sum up of my bday weekend:
Friday i spent with the family at my mum's school (they had their summer fair going on and i was selling tea and coffee from 10.30- 3)
In the evening we went out to eat chinese.
Saturday morning i went to Sliema (the major shopping town in Malta were all the brand named shops are; Zara, Topshop, BHS, MArks and Spencers etc etc) To spend my bday cash and so that my sis buys me a bday gift. I got a ton of clothes and things i totally need for Glasgow.
In the afternoon i just chilled and took a longggg shower and did my hair.
In the evening i went out with my best friends from a great meal ( and a surprise cake - chocolate with the best icing EVER!) I was so touched by their actions and their words on the card that they gave me and the presents. They moved me to tears. I was just so grateful that i had friends as great as them. Thank you gusy so much, for a great evening and a great bday! really one of the best!
Sunday - Well lol it is kind of slow today all i did was vacuum our house and mop the floor. But my dad - being the greatest chef that i know- is preparing a meal for my and my family, which i really can't wait to eat!
All in all, i was expecting this bday to b a downer and totally quiet. But i was so surprised that it wasn't! It was actually one of my best bdays, and definitely one i'm gonna remember!
xxxxx
much love!
Saturday, April 25, 2009
Questions!
65 Questions You've Probably Never Been Asked Before.
1. First thing you wash in the shower? My hair, it takes so long because of its length, better get it out of the way!
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie? Red, but im not going to see it until next winter it is already quite warm here!
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? well i gave my mum a birthday kiss, so if she counts Of course!
4. Do you plan outfits? usually whilst im in the shower in the morn i try to plan. When im out with friends i try on a zillion outfits before returning to the one i originally picked.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? stressed, anxious and guilty lol
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red? a ribbon i had tied round my cat's neck at christmas time
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? lately i seem to be dreaming a lot more than usual. the latest one involved to uni lecturers and a plane. lol.
8. Did you meet anybody new today? No - i stayed at home 'working' on my assignment grrr
9. What are you craving right now? summer and glasgow. i wish it was july!!!
10. Do you floss? No - i dont think we even have floss over here in MAlta, either way i've never seen it in stores.
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? the smell. and old people. I know, i know, very politically correct.
12. Are you emotional? not really, although i am much mor ein touch with my emotions than i ever was before.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000? No, y wud i want to?
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? I lick - i have very sensitive teeth. (xtina, i could do with that cookie ice cream we had last friday! yummm)
15. Do you like your hair? i love my hair. now that it is trimmed and its one colour, it looks healthy again. Right now it is a right state though lol!
16. Do you like yourself? i have learnt to give myself a lot more credit than i used. So, yea i do like myself :)
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? No, y would i even want to?
18.What are you listening to right now? the extraordinarily loud hum of my laptop charger.
19. Are your parents strict? Not at all. They were very strict with my older siblings but by the time i came, its like they really relaxed.
20. Would you go sky diving? I would want to, but i have to be realistic coz i knw i wouldnt!
21. Do you like cottage cheese? i love cottage cheese! only 3 calories. haha.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity? No. Not up close and personal anyways. I have seen will smith though, on the premier of Men in Black when i was in Leicester Square in London one time.
23. Do you rent movies often? Not really. I am youtube junkie.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in? Lol no. I'm looking around and i am suddenly aware of the lack of sparkly paraphernalia in my bedroom. Pity!
25. How many countries have you visited? Well ive been 4 times to Italy, once to France, twice to London and i was born in canada. so really 4.
26. Have you made a prank phone call? No. of course not (totally sarcastic)
27. Ever been on a train? yep. I love trains they are so relaxing.
28. Brown or white eggs? Im not a fan of eggs. they gross me out a bit.
29.Do you have a cell-phone? After my pink v3 motorola drowned in a pool of orange juice (i was stupid enough not to close my juice bottle properly) i acquied a Samsung white slide phone with purple buttons. I have grown to like it, but i loved my motorola!
30. Do you use chap stick? Not really, my hair always sticks to it lol.
31. Do you own a gun? No.
32. Can you use chop sticks? I tried but failed miserably.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight? My friend the computer and my best friend - the probation act :(
34. Are you too forgiving? Soemtimes. People say i am.
35. Ever been in love? Yes, but im not at the moment. and not looking either (at the moment)
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow? xtina probably is gonna relax with her family (am i wrong? lol), tess probably has to work. and theresa always eats a humongous lunch with her family and then sleeps it off lol.
37. Ever have cream puffs? Don't think i knw exactly wat they are.
38. Last time you cried? can't remember. I suppose it has been a while then.
39. What was the last question you asked? if my dad was going to cook dinner or am i.
40. Favourite time of the year? Spring. i LOVE spring!
41. Do you have any tattoos? No although I wouldn't mind one. im thinking a butterfly on my foot.
42. Are you sarcastic? Sometimes. When people ask me something stupid usually.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Yes i did, and i really liked it!
44. Ever walked into a wall? oh yes. lol. it happens often especially if im texting and walking at the same time.
45. Favourite colour? green! it used to b pink, but now it shifted to green and purple.
46. Have you ever slapped someone? Im not a violent person.
47. Is your hair curly? it kind of is. lol - more wavy really.
48. What was the last CD you bought? its been a while ever since Ares and imesh came into the world lol.
49. Do looks matter? Yes and no. u have to b attracted to someone u r going to marry, but it definitely can't be the only thing coz looks do change.
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater? no.
51. Is your phone bill sky high? (Iam VERY jealous of your system rebecca!) i have bought over 6 top up cards this month (each worth 5 euros)
52. Do you like your life right now? Yes i do. I have finally reached a time in my life when i am happy with what i have acheived and that i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on? No, I dont have a tv in my room.
54. Can you handle the truth? yes. I have thick skin and it's always better to know, than not to know.
55. Do you have good vision? YEs and no. i can great up to 1 meter, but then i need my specs. I dont mind them though!
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? i dont think so!
57. How often do you talk on the phone? Im always on the fone with my family members. My mobile is reserved for my friends. and MSN!
58. The last person you held hands with? well my friend grabbed my hand coz she was gonna fall lol. i dont think that counts though.
59. What are you wearing? stripey green t shirt (which is way too low cut for uni lol my mum had bought it for me!) and blue track trousers.
60.What is your favourite animal? I love my black cat. i love him SO much. but i love monkies and elephants too!
61. Where was your default picture taken at? my cousins wedding! which was actually held tomorrow of last yr!
62. Can you hula hoop? Yes. we always used to in primary school during PE
63. Do you have a job? No. Students in Malta get paid to study haha. it's not a lot but it's definitely better than nothing at all. i get 85 euros a month (for 10 months) and 400 euros a year for books and stationery.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought? shoes and a handbag because it's my mum's bday today and that's wat she wanted.
65. Have you ever crawled through a window? several times. I used to get locked in my room (my bro had broke the door knobs) and i used to jump out of my room into the yard and run around the house to get in from the front door.
i got inspired by her to answer these questions, that and i am procrastinating. I have to finish 2 assignments and i dont feel like. :S.
U can tell it's end of semester time. Exams, assignments, presentations. U name it, im doing it. yuck.
today week, it's my 21st bday! wow! im gonna enjoy that weekend, that's for sure!
the grass IS much greener today, metaphorically speaking!
much love,
xxxxxx
1. First thing you wash in the shower? My hair, it takes so long because of its length, better get it out of the way!
2. What colour is your favourite hoodie? Red, but im not going to see it until next winter it is already quite warm here!
3. Would you kiss the last person you kissed again? well i gave my mum a birthday kiss, so if she counts Of course!
4. Do you plan outfits? usually whilst im in the shower in the morn i try to plan. When im out with friends i try on a zillion outfits before returning to the one i originally picked.
5. How are you feeling RIGHT now? stressed, anxious and guilty lol
6. Whats the closest thing to you that's red? a ribbon i had tied round my cat's neck at christmas time
7. Tell me about the last dream you remember having? lately i seem to be dreaming a lot more than usual. the latest one involved to uni lecturers and a plane. lol.
8. Did you meet anybody new today? No - i stayed at home 'working' on my assignment grrr
9. What are you craving right now? summer and glasgow. i wish it was july!!!
10. Do you floss? No - i dont think we even have floss over here in MAlta, either way i've never seen it in stores.
11. What comes to mind when I say cabbage? the smell. and old people. I know, i know, very politically correct.
12. Are you emotional? not really, although i am much mor ein touch with my emotions than i ever was before.
13. Have you ever counted to 1,000? No, y wud i want to?
14. Do you bite into your ice cream or just lick it? I lick - i have very sensitive teeth. (xtina, i could do with that cookie ice cream we had last friday! yummm)
15. Do you like your hair? i love my hair. now that it is trimmed and its one colour, it looks healthy again. Right now it is a right state though lol!
16. Do you like yourself? i have learnt to give myself a lot more credit than i used. So, yea i do like myself :)
17. Would you go out to eat with George W. Bush? No, y would i even want to?
18.What are you listening to right now? the extraordinarily loud hum of my laptop charger.
19. Are your parents strict? Not at all. They were very strict with my older siblings but by the time i came, its like they really relaxed.
20. Would you go sky diving? I would want to, but i have to be realistic coz i knw i wouldnt!
21. Do you like cottage cheese? i love cottage cheese! only 3 calories. haha.
22. Have you ever met a celebrity? No. Not up close and personal anyways. I have seen will smith though, on the premier of Men in Black when i was in Leicester Square in London one time.
23. Do you rent movies often? Not really. I am youtube junkie.
24. Is there anything sparkly in the room you're in? Lol no. I'm looking around and i am suddenly aware of the lack of sparkly paraphernalia in my bedroom. Pity!
25. How many countries have you visited? Well ive been 4 times to Italy, once to France, twice to London and i was born in canada. so really 4.
26. Have you made a prank phone call? No. of course not (totally sarcastic)
27. Ever been on a train? yep. I love trains they are so relaxing.
28. Brown or white eggs? Im not a fan of eggs. they gross me out a bit.
29.Do you have a cell-phone? After my pink v3 motorola drowned in a pool of orange juice (i was stupid enough not to close my juice bottle properly) i acquied a Samsung white slide phone with purple buttons. I have grown to like it, but i loved my motorola!
30. Do you use chap stick? Not really, my hair always sticks to it lol.
31. Do you own a gun? No.
32. Can you use chop sticks? I tried but failed miserably.
33. Who are you going to be with tonight? My friend the computer and my best friend - the probation act :(
34. Are you too forgiving? Soemtimes. People say i am.
35. Ever been in love? Yes, but im not at the moment. and not looking either (at the moment)
36. What is your best friend(s) doing tomorrow? xtina probably is gonna relax with her family (am i wrong? lol), tess probably has to work. and theresa always eats a humongous lunch with her family and then sleeps it off lol.
37. Ever have cream puffs? Don't think i knw exactly wat they are.
38. Last time you cried? can't remember. I suppose it has been a while then.
39. What was the last question you asked? if my dad was going to cook dinner or am i.
40. Favourite time of the year? Spring. i LOVE spring!
41. Do you have any tattoos? No although I wouldn't mind one. im thinking a butterfly on my foot.
42. Are you sarcastic? Sometimes. When people ask me something stupid usually.
43. Have you ever seen The Butterfly Effect? Yes i did, and i really liked it!
44. Ever walked into a wall? oh yes. lol. it happens often especially if im texting and walking at the same time.
45. Favourite colour? green! it used to b pink, but now it shifted to green and purple.
46. Have you ever slapped someone? Im not a violent person.
47. Is your hair curly? it kind of is. lol - more wavy really.
48. What was the last CD you bought? its been a while ever since Ares and imesh came into the world lol.
49. Do looks matter? Yes and no. u have to b attracted to someone u r going to marry, but it definitely can't be the only thing coz looks do change.
50. Could you ever forgive a cheater? no.
51. Is your phone bill sky high? (Iam VERY jealous of your system rebecca!) i have bought over 6 top up cards this month (each worth 5 euros)
52. Do you like your life right now? Yes i do. I have finally reached a time in my life when i am happy with what i have acheived and that i can finally see the light at the end of the tunnel.
53. Do you sleep with the TV on? No, I dont have a tv in my room.
54. Can you handle the truth? yes. I have thick skin and it's always better to know, than not to know.
55. Do you have good vision? YEs and no. i can great up to 1 meter, but then i need my specs. I dont mind them though!
56. Do you hate or dislike more than 3 people? i dont think so!
57. How often do you talk on the phone? Im always on the fone with my family members. My mobile is reserved for my friends. and MSN!
58. The last person you held hands with? well my friend grabbed my hand coz she was gonna fall lol. i dont think that counts though.
59. What are you wearing? stripey green t shirt (which is way too low cut for uni lol my mum had bought it for me!) and blue track trousers.
60.What is your favourite animal? I love my black cat. i love him SO much. but i love monkies and elephants too!
61. Where was your default picture taken at? my cousins wedding! which was actually held tomorrow of last yr!
62. Can you hula hoop? Yes. we always used to in primary school during PE
63. Do you have a job? No. Students in Malta get paid to study haha. it's not a lot but it's definitely better than nothing at all. i get 85 euros a month (for 10 months) and 400 euros a year for books and stationery.
64. What was the most recent thing you bought? shoes and a handbag because it's my mum's bday today and that's wat she wanted.
65. Have you ever crawled through a window? several times. I used to get locked in my room (my bro had broke the door knobs) and i used to jump out of my room into the yard and run around the house to get in from the front door.
i got inspired by her to answer these questions, that and i am procrastinating. I have to finish 2 assignments and i dont feel like. :S.
U can tell it's end of semester time. Exams, assignments, presentations. U name it, im doing it. yuck.
today week, it's my 21st bday! wow! im gonna enjoy that weekend, that's for sure!
the grass IS much greener today, metaphorically speaking!
much love,
xxxxxx
Friday, April 24, 2009
dreams
This week whilst i was surfing on youtube, i found the clip of Susan boyle (of Britain's got talent) singing i dreamed a dream. It reminded me of when i saw the musical in London 10 yrs ago. Susan was so heart warming that i almost cried.
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Da9Hwt8yT7A&feature=related
These lyrics a lovely, and in my opinion, so truthful.
I dreamed a dream
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.
My dreams have certainly changed since i was young and many were killed by the everyday lives we lead. i dreamt to be a pianist, a writer or an artist and life spoilt them.
This week wasnt a great week, i had a bad stomach flu and i just plain wished that i could disappear and come back next week. Today i heard some vry heart breaking news and im saddened for this person, yet i cant do anything about it.
Lately people who i hang around with (not u tess and xtinangel!) are just plain making me feel as if im a rotten person, or that all i ever say is wrong. they make me feel as if everytime i open my mouth i say something bad. It's quite sad seeing that i see these ppl everyday. I'm also having problems with my sis. Ever since she got married it's like she changed into a complete different person. I feel as if i dont know her anymore and that she doesnt know me. This is really a pity bcoz i considered her one of my best friends. Sometimes i feel as if time is flying by, yet i'm stuck where i am unable to move forward. I feel so alone sometimes.
I cant believe im 21 next week! It looks like it will b a quiet b'day, but i dont mind i just want to spend it with my family and close friends.
On the plus side xtina got that job!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU LOVE! u deserve it soooooo much! you have been so patient, waiting for your opportunity and u got it! well done!
Until next time readers, hopefully with a more cheerful update. I have lost my perspective on things, i need to see the bigger picture.
Some one once told me the grass was much greener.... on the other side.
much love
xxxx
http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=Da9Hwt8yT7A&feature=related
These lyrics a lovely, and in my opinion, so truthful.
I dreamed a dream
There was a time when men were kind
When their voices were soft
And their words inviting
There was a time when love was blind
And the world was a song
And the song was exciting
There was a time
Then it all went wrong
I dreamed a dream in time gone by
When hope was high
And life worth living
I dreamed that love would never die
I dreamed that God would be forgiving
Then I was young and unafraid
And dreams were made and used and wasted
There was no ransom to be paid
No song unsung, no wine untasted
But the tigers come at night
With their voices soft as thunder
As they tear your hope apart
And they turn your dream to shame
He slept a summer by my side
He filled my days with endless wonder
He took my childhood in his stride
But he was gone when autumn came
And still I dream he'll come to me
That we will live the years together
But there are dreams that cannot be
And there are storms we cannot weather
I had a dream my life would be
So different from this hell I'm living
So different now from what it seemed
Now life has killed the dream I dreamed.
My dreams have certainly changed since i was young and many were killed by the everyday lives we lead. i dreamt to be a pianist, a writer or an artist and life spoilt them.
This week wasnt a great week, i had a bad stomach flu and i just plain wished that i could disappear and come back next week. Today i heard some vry heart breaking news and im saddened for this person, yet i cant do anything about it.
Lately people who i hang around with (not u tess and xtinangel!) are just plain making me feel as if im a rotten person, or that all i ever say is wrong. they make me feel as if everytime i open my mouth i say something bad. It's quite sad seeing that i see these ppl everyday. I'm also having problems with my sis. Ever since she got married it's like she changed into a complete different person. I feel as if i dont know her anymore and that she doesnt know me. This is really a pity bcoz i considered her one of my best friends. Sometimes i feel as if time is flying by, yet i'm stuck where i am unable to move forward. I feel so alone sometimes.
I cant believe im 21 next week! It looks like it will b a quiet b'day, but i dont mind i just want to spend it with my family and close friends.
On the plus side xtina got that job!!! IM SO HAPPY FOR YOU LOVE! u deserve it soooooo much! you have been so patient, waiting for your opportunity and u got it! well done!
Until next time readers, hopefully with a more cheerful update. I have lost my perspective on things, i need to see the bigger picture.
Some one once told me the grass was much greener.... on the other side.
much love
xxxx
Tuesday, April 7, 2009
holidays!
So now it's April!
the last time i wrote i was amazed at how quick life can be taken away from u, literally, in the blink of an eye!
I started easter hoidays this week! wiii!!!!! I need them badly because i am horrendously busy. i have so many assignments and so much coursework to do, i am feeling overwhelmed. So much for holidays.
But i am getting more and more excited for july!i know i mention this in EVERY post, but it just shows how EXCITED i am. i want change and an adventure and a challenge in my life... i just need ERASMUS to get back to me.. lol.
In the mean time i will concentrate on all my assignments and final semester exams, which are coming up soon.
Befor signing off i want to give a huge shout out to xtinangel for at least getting a trial at a new job! i knw u can do this girl! u are gonna rule! lots of love xxxxx miss u!
take care everyone and have a blessed Easter!
xxxxx
the last time i wrote i was amazed at how quick life can be taken away from u, literally, in the blink of an eye!
I started easter hoidays this week! wiii!!!!! I need them badly because i am horrendously busy. i have so many assignments and so much coursework to do, i am feeling overwhelmed. So much for holidays.
But i am getting more and more excited for july!i know i mention this in EVERY post, but it just shows how EXCITED i am. i want change and an adventure and a challenge in my life... i just need ERASMUS to get back to me.. lol.
In the mean time i will concentrate on all my assignments and final semester exams, which are coming up soon.
Befor signing off i want to give a huge shout out to xtinangel for at least getting a trial at a new job! i knw u can do this girl! u are gonna rule! lots of love xxxxx miss u!
take care everyone and have a blessed Easter!
xxxxx
Sunday, March 29, 2009
Sadness and surprise
I am supposed to be reading this article for one of my classes but i just can't. Thoughts keep infiltrating my mind and i just can't concenrtate on what i am reading.
This weekend was so ordinary, too ordinary and too quiet. One of my friends (M) from Canada had introduced me to one of her friends (B) (over MSN) years ago, and we had been chatting on and off. This morning M chats to me to let me know that B (along with 2 other young girls) died in a car accident on the highway.
This totally freaked me out because i had just chatted to her 3 days earlier and she had told me all her plans for her weekend. and she's dead. I have her on my msn contacts and her nick says "3 months till summer hols". and she's dead. She is one of my facebook friends and her status update still reads - finally the weekend. and she's dead.
My god, she was SO young, this wasnt supposed to happen. She said bye to her parents for the LAST time. She had fun for with her friends for the LAST time on saturday.
And now she is gone.
And she is dead.
What an awful tragedy.
How the heck can i think about the future when everything can change in the blink of an eye?
None of this makes any sense.
And i am too shocked and freaked out to make any sense of it.
till next time y'all
This weekend was so ordinary, too ordinary and too quiet. One of my friends (M) from Canada had introduced me to one of her friends (B) (over MSN) years ago, and we had been chatting on and off. This morning M chats to me to let me know that B (along with 2 other young girls) died in a car accident on the highway.
This totally freaked me out because i had just chatted to her 3 days earlier and she had told me all her plans for her weekend. and she's dead. I have her on my msn contacts and her nick says "3 months till summer hols". and she's dead. She is one of my facebook friends and her status update still reads - finally the weekend. and she's dead.
My god, she was SO young, this wasnt supposed to happen. She said bye to her parents for the LAST time. She had fun for with her friends for the LAST time on saturday.
And now she is gone.
And she is dead.
What an awful tragedy.
How the heck can i think about the future when everything can change in the blink of an eye?
None of this makes any sense.
And i am too shocked and freaked out to make any sense of it.
till next time y'all
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Good bye March!
March has been a relatively good month. Quiet, warmer weather, busy certainly describes March for me!
Now that March is over, it means that july is one month closer (duh! i knw lol) and Glasgow awaits me! i CANT wait!
At the same time I cant believe That March is over, it has passed SOOOO quickly! i can't believe 3rd yr is almost over, it seems like yesterday that the year just started, time is passing and i can't seem to catch up with it.
April is going to be VRY busy, I have to finish a lot of assignments which i have let pile up, with the excuse of doing them over Easter holidays, i have to study for my end of semester tests. As u can tell, a lot procrastination is going on here.
But after Arpil comes my 21st B'day in May! I can't wait, unlike most of my friends who DREAD their bdays, i quite like to grow a year older because i often look back and say wow, im already ____ years old! and look what i have accomplished. Besides that i love pressies and celebrating with my closest and bestest (i knw thats not even a word!) friends!
Moreover, i cant help wonder y there seems to be SO many nursing students who blog, and i cant seem to come across any social work students! I guess nursing students have funnier, better tales to tell than us social workers lol! I am glad that i have some other people reading my blog though and leaving me comments!
That's all from my front,
keep well and i hope allergies dont attack u!
xxxxxx
Now that March is over, it means that july is one month closer (duh! i knw lol) and Glasgow awaits me! i CANT wait!
At the same time I cant believe That March is over, it has passed SOOOO quickly! i can't believe 3rd yr is almost over, it seems like yesterday that the year just started, time is passing and i can't seem to catch up with it.
April is going to be VRY busy, I have to finish a lot of assignments which i have let pile up, with the excuse of doing them over Easter holidays, i have to study for my end of semester tests. As u can tell, a lot procrastination is going on here.
But after Arpil comes my 21st B'day in May! I can't wait, unlike most of my friends who DREAD their bdays, i quite like to grow a year older because i often look back and say wow, im already ____ years old! and look what i have accomplished. Besides that i love pressies and celebrating with my closest and bestest (i knw thats not even a word!) friends!
Moreover, i cant help wonder y there seems to be SO many nursing students who blog, and i cant seem to come across any social work students! I guess nursing students have funnier, better tales to tell than us social workers lol! I am glad that i have some other people reading my blog though and leaving me comments!
That's all from my front,
keep well and i hope allergies dont attack u!
xxxxxx
Thursday, March 12, 2009
Feelings
Today i have a lot on my mind and i am trying to put all my thoughts in order. So if this seems disjointed, i'm sorry.
feelings...
For me is a strange concept. One minute u r over the moon happy, the next u can be totally down. U can have one day full have discontentment and frustration and the next u can be very excited and full of emotions.
This past week has been a good week, and im looking forward to a packed weekend. But even though i had a good week and generally was happy, there were things going on outside my own little world which made me wonder and shocked me into realising how one day things can be great and they can turn awful in a second.
This week in Malta a fostered 16 yr old Russian kid was found dead, he drowned, police say that they don't think it is suicide but the autopsy shows otherwise. What could have made this kid think that the last viable solution was death? why didnt anybody talk to him? what went on inside his head when he was jumping into the cold, cold february sea?
Yesterday in Germany another tragedy happened, another young person shot out at several students and the police ended up shooting him. Again y did this young person do dat? what did he feel? what was the intention?
So when i was feeling so happy and glad about all my great 1st semester grades, there was a kid who drowned himself, another one who shot out at others and ended up shot himself, a kid was diagnosed with childhood cancer and an adult died before his time. In the midst of this, somewhere a baby was born into this mixed up world
One never knows when his/her last day on Earth may be. You could have a terminal illness or else you may just drop and die. The thought that i could be saying good bye to my mum, dad, sister, brother, friends etc for the last time freaks me out. I know there is an after life, but where would my family and friends be?
The thought that one day i could actually die, actually stop breathing makes my heart quicken and makes me think of all the things i haven't yet done, all the things i haven't yet said.
in hospitals they say you know, you know when u r going to die. some doctors say that it is a look patients get in their eyes, some say there is a scent, a smell of death. Some think there's just some kind of sixth sense that when the great beyond is heading for you, you feel it coming. Whatever it is, it's creepy because if you do know, what do you do about it? forget about the fact that you're probably scared out of your mind.
If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?
Well these are my thoughts today.
much love
xxxxx
feelings...
For me is a strange concept. One minute u r over the moon happy, the next u can be totally down. U can have one day full have discontentment and frustration and the next u can be very excited and full of emotions.
This past week has been a good week, and im looking forward to a packed weekend. But even though i had a good week and generally was happy, there were things going on outside my own little world which made me wonder and shocked me into realising how one day things can be great and they can turn awful in a second.
This week in Malta a fostered 16 yr old Russian kid was found dead, he drowned, police say that they don't think it is suicide but the autopsy shows otherwise. What could have made this kid think that the last viable solution was death? why didnt anybody talk to him? what went on inside his head when he was jumping into the cold, cold february sea?
Yesterday in Germany another tragedy happened, another young person shot out at several students and the police ended up shooting him. Again y did this young person do dat? what did he feel? what was the intention?
So when i was feeling so happy and glad about all my great 1st semester grades, there was a kid who drowned himself, another one who shot out at others and ended up shot himself, a kid was diagnosed with childhood cancer and an adult died before his time. In the midst of this, somewhere a baby was born into this mixed up world
One never knows when his/her last day on Earth may be. You could have a terminal illness or else you may just drop and die. The thought that i could be saying good bye to my mum, dad, sister, brother, friends etc for the last time freaks me out. I know there is an after life, but where would my family and friends be?
The thought that one day i could actually die, actually stop breathing makes my heart quicken and makes me think of all the things i haven't yet done, all the things i haven't yet said.
in hospitals they say you know, you know when u r going to die. some doctors say that it is a look patients get in their eyes, some say there is a scent, a smell of death. Some think there's just some kind of sixth sense that when the great beyond is heading for you, you feel it coming. Whatever it is, it's creepy because if you do know, what do you do about it? forget about the fact that you're probably scared out of your mind.
If you knew this was your last day on Earth, how would you want to spend it?
Well these are my thoughts today.
much love
xxxxx
Monday, March 2, 2009
i'm backkkk :)
I am back from my holiday in italy! and it was SOOOO great! i had NEVER, seen snow and now i've seen it, touched it and froze by it lol. I like snow but i LOVE sunny Malta. All in all it was a great trip with no bumps or anything.
I am back at uni now. Finally our first semester results are coming through, so far so good but im still holding my breath for the other 2 which are left. hopefully everything will work out just great.
I met the scottish lady who will be supervising me in Glasgow whilst on placement there... she seems really nice! and gave me such great info on the agency im working with and general advice and tips.
Now i am more excited than ever! i just can't wait to goooo. i wish tomorrow was July and i'll be leaving. I'm going to miss all my best friends sooo much and my family too but im positive it will be worthwhile in Glasgow.
March is one of my favourite months. My favourite season is in march (spring!) and i celebrate 3 important birthdays in MArch.. My sister's (she will be 25), My brother in law's (he will be 35) and my best friend's (she will be 21). So as you can see it is going to be a pretty busy month! but definitely worth the business!
That's all from my front
have a great MARCH!
much love
xxxx
PS... do u like my new background? it is SO me, very girly and flower-y lol.!
I am back at uni now. Finally our first semester results are coming through, so far so good but im still holding my breath for the other 2 which are left. hopefully everything will work out just great.
I met the scottish lady who will be supervising me in Glasgow whilst on placement there... she seems really nice! and gave me such great info on the agency im working with and general advice and tips.
Now i am more excited than ever! i just can't wait to goooo. i wish tomorrow was July and i'll be leaving. I'm going to miss all my best friends sooo much and my family too but im positive it will be worthwhile in Glasgow.
March is one of my favourite months. My favourite season is in march (spring!) and i celebrate 3 important birthdays in MArch.. My sister's (she will be 25), My brother in law's (he will be 35) and my best friend's (she will be 21). So as you can see it is going to be a pretty busy month! but definitely worth the business!
That's all from my front
have a great MARCH!
much love
xxxx
PS... do u like my new background? it is SO me, very girly and flower-y lol.!
Saturday, February 14, 2009
roller coaster
lately i have felt as if i am on a roller coaster ride, up and then down.
My week in a summary and the roller coaster ride:
Thesis proposal finished ..... UPPPPPP
Find out i have an extremely long form to fill out .... DOWNNNN
My tutor was super nice to me ....... UPPP
Ther participants for my research study did not remember to submit their consent letters ....................... MAJOR DOWN
Finally tutor gives thumbs up on the the thesis proposal and the literature review .................................. UPPPPPP
Finally i try to print the whole thing out for tutor to sign, and the printer refuses to work ........... DOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
Finally receive all my letters, i print everything, everything is signed and ready to be posted on Monday .............................. HUGE UP!
I guess all's well that ends well!
On a different note my tutor, who is really, really kind and helpful to me made me say something personal which i didnt want to say, but it did come up. And now i dont knw how to face this. She knows something about me that only my very close friends and family know. Quite honestly i don't know how I feel about this or how to deal with it. I just hope she won't think of me any different than she already does.
I'm looking forward to next weekend because i won't be here in Malta, I will be in Italy! oh yea!!! lol.
till next time!
much love,
xxxxxxx
My week in a summary and the roller coaster ride:
Thesis proposal finished ..... UPPPPPP
Find out i have an extremely long form to fill out .... DOWNNNN
My tutor was super nice to me ....... UPPP
Ther participants for my research study did not remember to submit their consent letters ....................... MAJOR DOWN
Finally tutor gives thumbs up on the the thesis proposal and the literature review .................................. UPPPPPP
Finally i try to print the whole thing out for tutor to sign, and the printer refuses to work ........... DOWNNNNNNNNNNNNNNN
Finally receive all my letters, i print everything, everything is signed and ready to be posted on Monday .............................. HUGE UP!
I guess all's well that ends well!
On a different note my tutor, who is really, really kind and helpful to me made me say something personal which i didnt want to say, but it did come up. And now i dont knw how to face this. She knows something about me that only my very close friends and family know. Quite honestly i don't know how I feel about this or how to deal with it. I just hope she won't think of me any different than she already does.
I'm looking forward to next weekend because i won't be here in Malta, I will be in Italy! oh yea!!! lol.
till next time!
much love,
xxxxxxx
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
a holiday??
Yesterday, Monday, was a BAD day. You know the kind when u just wish you stayed in bed? well i'll tell you a bit about my day yesterday...
Well since my parents and my brother are all teachers, they get up at 6am to get to work on time, I, on the other hand, get up much later seeing as i just went to sleep at 3 or 4am. My family are NOISY and when i say noisy, i dont just mean chitter chatter noisiness, but i mean NOISY. Anyway i get up to close my door. 2 seconds after i get back to bed my cat starts crying to be let in, so i get up again. back to bed. The cat starts knocking down my JEWELLERY boxes because he is hungry, ok i feed him and after i get back to bed. The cat INSISTS on sleeping on my pillow right next my face... my cat, incidentally weighs almost 10kilos, he is a BIG cat and takes up a lot of room. Somehow i sleep. at 7.15 my brother bangs, not knocks, bangs, on my door to tell me good bye... go figure! And i fall asleep again.
At 9 o clock i have to get up after 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep, to wash my hair which takes a good 45 minutes. After my shower,i get dressed and decide to prepare some lunch (seeing as now it's 11) after i have it ready i realise that one of the ingredients was expired.. forget lunch. I get ready to leave for a meeting with my horrendously busy tutor, thinking that an hour is plenty of time to get to a destination 15 mins away. right?
... WRONG! i left at 12.15 to catch the 12.30 bus for my 1.15 appointment. Well, 12.30 comes along, 12.40, 12.45 and NO bus! needless to say i start panicking as this meeting was so hard to schedule and i DONT want to miss it! to top it all off, the tutor didnt want to give me her mobile number so i have no way of contacting her aaaa. Therefore when 1.00 comes by i decide to give my best friend (who drives) a ring to ask her if she can give me a lift, thankfully she accepts in a heart beat (she's just so great, isnt she? :) ) and comes for me and i make it 10 mins late.
At the meeting i discover that i still have SO MUCH TO DO! i thought i was finished with my thesis proposal and literature review, i was so, so WRONG!
Today is a public holiday for all us maltesers because it's St. Paul, the patron saint of Malta. Usually on this public holiday we go out as a family and genuinely have some relaxing fun... i bet you can guess how i spent this holiday! yes! i spent it working on my thesis. and i am STILL not done and it's already 8.30 pm :( another long night a suppose :(.
So much for a holiday...
Anyway bye for now.
Much love y'all
xxxx
Well since my parents and my brother are all teachers, they get up at 6am to get to work on time, I, on the other hand, get up much later seeing as i just went to sleep at 3 or 4am. My family are NOISY and when i say noisy, i dont just mean chitter chatter noisiness, but i mean NOISY. Anyway i get up to close my door. 2 seconds after i get back to bed my cat starts crying to be let in, so i get up again. back to bed. The cat starts knocking down my JEWELLERY boxes because he is hungry, ok i feed him and after i get back to bed. The cat INSISTS on sleeping on my pillow right next my face... my cat, incidentally weighs almost 10kilos, he is a BIG cat and takes up a lot of room. Somehow i sleep. at 7.15 my brother bangs, not knocks, bangs, on my door to tell me good bye... go figure! And i fall asleep again.
At 9 o clock i have to get up after 3 hours of uninterrupted sleep, to wash my hair which takes a good 45 minutes. After my shower,i get dressed and decide to prepare some lunch (seeing as now it's 11) after i have it ready i realise that one of the ingredients was expired.. forget lunch. I get ready to leave for a meeting with my horrendously busy tutor, thinking that an hour is plenty of time to get to a destination 15 mins away. right?
... WRONG! i left at 12.15 to catch the 12.30 bus for my 1.15 appointment. Well, 12.30 comes along, 12.40, 12.45 and NO bus! needless to say i start panicking as this meeting was so hard to schedule and i DONT want to miss it! to top it all off, the tutor didnt want to give me her mobile number so i have no way of contacting her aaaa. Therefore when 1.00 comes by i decide to give my best friend (who drives) a ring to ask her if she can give me a lift, thankfully she accepts in a heart beat (she's just so great, isnt she? :) ) and comes for me and i make it 10 mins late.
At the meeting i discover that i still have SO MUCH TO DO! i thought i was finished with my thesis proposal and literature review, i was so, so WRONG!
Today is a public holiday for all us maltesers because it's St. Paul, the patron saint of Malta. Usually on this public holiday we go out as a family and genuinely have some relaxing fun... i bet you can guess how i spent this holiday! yes! i spent it working on my thesis. and i am STILL not done and it's already 8.30 pm :( another long night a suppose :(.
So much for a holiday...
Anyway bye for now.
Much love y'all
xxxx
Thursday, February 5, 2009
My Mummy
yes i know! 2 posts in one day!
But i want u to get to know a very special lady in my life! My Mummy :)
here is a pic!
This was taken on our recent holiday in london (Im on the left and my mum is on the right) . My mum is already 57 years old, and she is so very special to me. We used to clash completely, but now that the teenage years are over i have found a friend in her and i feel as if i have truly gotten to know her as a person. I feel very blessed (even when we do have our infamous disagreements) that i have her as a mum. I am her youngest child and she used to worry that she wouldn't be 'young' enough to be a mum, but i can confirm that i never ever felt disadvantaged. My mum is a great religion teacher to 13-16 year olds she holds 2 university degrees, one in philosophy and another in religion and her teacher's diploma. She is a very funny lady, and can even get a conversation out of a wall. She is patient, kind and would do just about anything for her children's welfare and happiness. She is quite self less in that respect. She has worked hard all her life and is very proud of what she has accomplished (and she has the right to be too!) My mum has taught me to chase your dreams and really get to know what you want to do in life and understand your abilities and talents. She taught me how to live a life without debt and also how to cook several Maltese dishes! I love to spend time with her and I love her so much, i honestly don't know what I wouLd do without this fantastic lady!
During next week ill post all of my family. They are so special in their own way!
much love
xxxxx
But i want u to get to know a very special lady in my life! My Mummy :)
here is a pic!
This was taken on our recent holiday in london (Im on the left and my mum is on the right) . My mum is already 57 years old, and she is so very special to me. We used to clash completely, but now that the teenage years are over i have found a friend in her and i feel as if i have truly gotten to know her as a person. I feel very blessed (even when we do have our infamous disagreements) that i have her as a mum. I am her youngest child and she used to worry that she wouldn't be 'young' enough to be a mum, but i can confirm that i never ever felt disadvantaged. My mum is a great religion teacher to 13-16 year olds she holds 2 university degrees, one in philosophy and another in religion and her teacher's diploma. She is a very funny lady, and can even get a conversation out of a wall. She is patient, kind and would do just about anything for her children's welfare and happiness. She is quite self less in that respect. She has worked hard all her life and is very proud of what she has accomplished (and she has the right to be too!) My mum has taught me to chase your dreams and really get to know what you want to do in life and understand your abilities and talents. She taught me how to live a life without debt and also how to cook several Maltese dishes! I love to spend time with her and I love her so much, i honestly don't know what I wouLd do without this fantastic lady!
During next week ill post all of my family. They are so special in their own way!
much love
xxxxx
25 things about me
I received this on facebook and decided to paste it here too
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
1. i am 20 years old and i think it's the best age to be - old enough to be considered an adult, yet young enough to still wear pig tails.
2. i was born in canada and would do anything to go back again to see it and to meet my parents' old friends.
3. I am a social work student and love,love, love the profession and can't wait to work full time in about 2 yrs times!
4. i have a huge bedroom but my most favourite thing in it is my shelf which is full of presents my best friend gave me!
5. Something i can never, ever get tired of eating are chocolate chip cookies. I LOVE THEM SOOOOO MUCH!
6. I cannot function unless i shower first thing in the morning. I can take up to 3 showers a day coz i love the nice clean feeling.
7. I cannot live without my laptop and my mobile.
8. when i was 3 i got an awful burn on my knee coz my car seat seat-belt buckle was so hot, it burned a whole right through my skin. it took almost 6 months to heal completely and i still have a scar today.
9. When i was 4 i developed a bad lisp due to all the language confusion in my little brain, english, Maltese and French too. This is about the time when i moved back to Malta. By the the time i was 6 i was cured though.
10. i can raise my right eyebrow on its own, but for some reason i cant do the same with my left. this makes it hard when it comes to plucking my eyebrows because they almost always coem uneven.
11. My mum is a complete red head with bright green eyes, however this did not translate wat so ever to me as i am the typical mediterranean - dark hair and dark eyes.
12. i have a huge passion in helping the poor, as soon as i graduate i want to go to Kenya to do some volunteering.
13. I love to travel, but i only go around European states.
14. I live on an island so i love the beach and the sand and i learned how to swim when i was 6.
15. I am used to very warm weather, so i hate it when it is too cold. Then again i hate August temperatures!
16. I am a very fast typist.
17. I love anything technological.
18. I have never touched a playstation in my life.
19. I can be horribly bossy, but not intentionally, it's just coz i dont want to see a person doing somethign wrong when i know i can help put it right.
20. I really enjoy watching good movies with great company.. including my mummy!
21. I have incredibly long hair, yet i dont know how to style it properly and always end up plaiting it or straightening it with my hot iron clamp.
22. I love chicken and lamb... mmmm and rosemary potatoes
23. I am a great cook!
24. I help people a lot and try to treat others as i would liek them to treat me.
25. I am a good leader and i stand up for what i believe it, including standing up for other people.
That's me!
much love
xxxx
Rules: Once you've been tagged, you are supposed to write a note with 25 random things, facts, habits, or goals about you. At the end, choose 25 people to be tagged. You have to tag the person who tagged you. If I tagged you, it's because I want to know more about you.
1. i am 20 years old and i think it's the best age to be - old enough to be considered an adult, yet young enough to still wear pig tails.
2. i was born in canada and would do anything to go back again to see it and to meet my parents' old friends.
3. I am a social work student and love,love, love the profession and can't wait to work full time in about 2 yrs times!
4. i have a huge bedroom but my most favourite thing in it is my shelf which is full of presents my best friend gave me!
5. Something i can never, ever get tired of eating are chocolate chip cookies. I LOVE THEM SOOOOO MUCH!
6. I cannot function unless i shower first thing in the morning. I can take up to 3 showers a day coz i love the nice clean feeling.
7. I cannot live without my laptop and my mobile.
8. when i was 3 i got an awful burn on my knee coz my car seat seat-belt buckle was so hot, it burned a whole right through my skin. it took almost 6 months to heal completely and i still have a scar today.
9. When i was 4 i developed a bad lisp due to all the language confusion in my little brain, english, Maltese and French too. This is about the time when i moved back to Malta. By the the time i was 6 i was cured though.
10. i can raise my right eyebrow on its own, but for some reason i cant do the same with my left. this makes it hard when it comes to plucking my eyebrows because they almost always coem uneven.
11. My mum is a complete red head with bright green eyes, however this did not translate wat so ever to me as i am the typical mediterranean - dark hair and dark eyes.
12. i have a huge passion in helping the poor, as soon as i graduate i want to go to Kenya to do some volunteering.
13. I love to travel, but i only go around European states.
14. I live on an island so i love the beach and the sand and i learned how to swim when i was 6.
15. I am used to very warm weather, so i hate it when it is too cold. Then again i hate August temperatures!
16. I am a very fast typist.
17. I love anything technological.
18. I have never touched a playstation in my life.
19. I can be horribly bossy, but not intentionally, it's just coz i dont want to see a person doing somethign wrong when i know i can help put it right.
20. I really enjoy watching good movies with great company.. including my mummy!
21. I have incredibly long hair, yet i dont know how to style it properly and always end up plaiting it or straightening it with my hot iron clamp.
22. I love chicken and lamb... mmmm and rosemary potatoes
23. I am a great cook!
24. I help people a lot and try to treat others as i would liek them to treat me.
25. I am a good leader and i stand up for what i believe it, including standing up for other people.
That's me!
much love
xxxx
Monday, January 26, 2009
exams are over!
aaa! that's super great news!
I'm so glad now! i do have to write my assignment and i do have to do my literature review for my thesis, but i dont have to study anymore! which is great, great news! Now i am anxiously waiting that i do well and pass, fingers and toes crossed!
Also i'm looking forward to february because i get to go on a 3-4 day vacation to italy!!! YEYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! im super, super looking forward.
Anyone who sees this blog probably thinks i'm really lucky to go abroad a lot (which i am btw!), but what they don't realise is that as americans go from state to state with no problem, we in europe can do the same! Being in the EU has tons of adcantages, since we live in what's called the Schengen area - we dont need passports to fly to other EU states, we just go through with our ID cards. Also now that Malta has the Euro currency, it makes it even easier.
I'm trying to take photos of what Malta really looks like to post up here, so maybe the people who DO read my blog can get an idea of where i'm from and my culture.
Anyway, the first month of the year is drawing to a close, we'll see what the other 11 months have in store for me.
Much love everyone, and stay safe!
xxxx
I'm so glad now! i do have to write my assignment and i do have to do my literature review for my thesis, but i dont have to study anymore! which is great, great news! Now i am anxiously waiting that i do well and pass, fingers and toes crossed!
Also i'm looking forward to february because i get to go on a 3-4 day vacation to italy!!! YEYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!!!!! im super, super looking forward.
Anyone who sees this blog probably thinks i'm really lucky to go abroad a lot (which i am btw!), but what they don't realise is that as americans go from state to state with no problem, we in europe can do the same! Being in the EU has tons of adcantages, since we live in what's called the Schengen area - we dont need passports to fly to other EU states, we just go through with our ID cards. Also now that Malta has the Euro currency, it makes it even easier.
I'm trying to take photos of what Malta really looks like to post up here, so maybe the people who DO read my blog can get an idea of where i'm from and my culture.
Anyway, the first month of the year is drawing to a close, we'll see what the other 11 months have in store for me.
Much love everyone, and stay safe!
xxxx
Tuesday, January 20, 2009
another post!
Yesterday after my exams i was just thinking about totally random stuff. Since i had an 8am exam and therefore had to wake up at 6 in order to get ready for the 7 o clock bus and to face the horrible, horrible morning traffic, I didn't get much sleep at all. So i was horribly tired when 2 pm rolled around and i was ready to leave uni. NB, when you are horribly tired you may (or may not!) think of totally random 'stuff'.
My first thought was about languages, upon uni admission all undergraduate students have to sit for a basic english test which is fine i mean. But what many students ask is why aren't lectures in Maltese? This seems easy enough to answer as in, English is a global language and MAltese is just spoken here in Malta and mostly spoken in the homes. Most Maltese can speak as many as 4 or 5 languages; French, Italian, English and Maltese as well as sometimes Spanish, German and Arabic. I love living in Malta for several reasons; it's small, i know where everythign and anything is so i never get lost, the warm weather all through out the year (ok, ok right now it is pouring) but temperatures never get lower than 9 degrees Celsius so... pretty ok. Also Maltese are really nice people if you cen get over their LOUD voices, exaggerated gesticulation and ignorance (i dont mean that in a bad way it's just that since we live in a small country, we don't have as many opportunities) u will find MAltese to be kind, generous and unique.
what else did i think of? well as i was riding the bus from uni i stopped to try to look out the bus window from an objective point of view, if i was a tourist what would i think of Malta? In this way i spotted more garbage on the curbs, the broken down walls, the abandoned houses, the weird looking shops, the outskirts of major towns. It is very interesting that you only spot this when u r truly looking for it.
mmm I also wondered why my parents ever returned to Malta after spending 20+ yrs of their life in canada, i find it interesting how they Canada neevr felt like 'home' and that returning to Malta was a breath of relief, this made me very curious at how i will feel when i leave for Glasgow in July. I am very very excited for July to come fast. :)
In the mean time, i am getting ready for my final exam of this Semester, all in all it has been an okay semester, it was very relaxed and i enjoyed having more time to myself during term time! Anyways until next time everybody!
cu and tc!
lots of love
xxxx
PS I have finally seen some Americans on my blog! waaahhhoooo! lol i am glad! Do leave a comment, i woudl lvoe to hear from u guys!
My first thought was about languages, upon uni admission all undergraduate students have to sit for a basic english test which is fine i mean. But what many students ask is why aren't lectures in Maltese? This seems easy enough to answer as in, English is a global language and MAltese is just spoken here in Malta and mostly spoken in the homes. Most Maltese can speak as many as 4 or 5 languages; French, Italian, English and Maltese as well as sometimes Spanish, German and Arabic. I love living in Malta for several reasons; it's small, i know where everythign and anything is so i never get lost, the warm weather all through out the year (ok, ok right now it is pouring) but temperatures never get lower than 9 degrees Celsius so... pretty ok. Also Maltese are really nice people if you cen get over their LOUD voices, exaggerated gesticulation and ignorance (i dont mean that in a bad way it's just that since we live in a small country, we don't have as many opportunities) u will find MAltese to be kind, generous and unique.
what else did i think of? well as i was riding the bus from uni i stopped to try to look out the bus window from an objective point of view, if i was a tourist what would i think of Malta? In this way i spotted more garbage on the curbs, the broken down walls, the abandoned houses, the weird looking shops, the outskirts of major towns. It is very interesting that you only spot this when u r truly looking for it.
mmm I also wondered why my parents ever returned to Malta after spending 20+ yrs of their life in canada, i find it interesting how they Canada neevr felt like 'home' and that returning to Malta was a breath of relief, this made me very curious at how i will feel when i leave for Glasgow in July. I am very very excited for July to come fast. :)
In the mean time, i am getting ready for my final exam of this Semester, all in all it has been an okay semester, it was very relaxed and i enjoyed having more time to myself during term time! Anyways until next time everybody!
cu and tc!
lots of love
xxxx
PS I have finally seen some Americans on my blog! waaahhhoooo! lol i am glad! Do leave a comment, i woudl lvoe to hear from u guys!
Friday, January 16, 2009
Exam stress
You know it's exam time when:
People who never update their blogs, are in fact updating their blogs
People start using facebook in a scary stalker-like way
On a Friday night, everyone is on MSN
Disney films and old cartoons start to be watched obsessively
New TV series are found
Inordinate amounts of chocolate are consumed
Wikipedia is visited 9126740783654 times a day to look up totally random info
Find a lot more teenagers at Mass on Sundays
You suddenly see people praying at odd times of the day
When you catch the bus to uni, every student on it is studying
The uni library suddenly becomes VERY full
And the number one reason how someone knows there are exams:
I have updated my blog twice in one week (shock! horror!) instead of once a month.
haha
Have a great weekend! and keep warm, although i have nothing to complain about!
lots of love
xxxxxxxxx
People who never update their blogs, are in fact updating their blogs
People start using facebook in a scary stalker-like way
On a Friday night, everyone is on MSN
Disney films and old cartoons start to be watched obsessively
New TV series are found
Inordinate amounts of chocolate are consumed
Wikipedia is visited 9126740783654 times a day to look up totally random info
Find a lot more teenagers at Mass on Sundays
You suddenly see people praying at odd times of the day
When you catch the bus to uni, every student on it is studying
The uni library suddenly becomes VERY full
And the number one reason how someone knows there are exams:
I have updated my blog twice in one week (shock! horror!) instead of once a month.
haha
Have a great weekend! and keep warm, although i have nothing to complain about!
lots of love
xxxxxxxxx
Wednesday, January 14, 2009
the art of procrastination
so it is the 14th of January and it's almost 6pm (CET) already!! aaaaa! this means that my 1st semester exams are drawing closer and closer. AFter 2 weeks of wondering if exams will actually be held (lecturers strike) they have confirmed that they ARE going to be held! That means Monday at 8.30 i will have my first exam - Ethics! Im not TOO worried about this one but still have to study coz there is quite a bit to remember. Then on Friday 23rd i have my last exam - Development in industrial societies... o gosh i hope i pass that one lol. Well we'll see i have to study, and not procrastinate, so best of luck to me. Let's just say i can't wait till friday the 23rd arrives so i can go party with my friends, coz i am missing them :(.
Other than exams, the new year is going ok, it could be better but i'm not complaining. Still excited to see what is going to come.
I keep seeing these reports on TV about the freezing temperatures the world is experiencing, cant say the same for Malta. Although we have rain and thunder every other day, the temperatures are still quite high like around 60F, which is quite warm considering it is january. Im not even wearing my jacket lol, only sweaters!
Hope you all have a good week,
Lots of love
xxxxx
Other than exams, the new year is going ok, it could be better but i'm not complaining. Still excited to see what is going to come.
I keep seeing these reports on TV about the freezing temperatures the world is experiencing, cant say the same for Malta. Although we have rain and thunder every other day, the temperatures are still quite high like around 60F, which is quite warm considering it is january. Im not even wearing my jacket lol, only sweaters!
Hope you all have a good week,
Lots of love
xxxxx
Thursday, January 1, 2009
happy new year!
wow! 2008 is over, and 2009 is a whole day old. 2008 was one of the best years i've had in a longggg time, it was perfect in every way. now i am so excited to see what 2009 has in store for us! for me it's definitely gonna be a growing experience since i have never lived on my own before. I am so excited for this year to get a move on, i hope it will be as good as the last! i am so thankful that i am so blessed and i have everyone i love around me.
more over, xmas was great too! i spent xmas in london, and had a great time, i truly enjoyed spending time with my parents since i dont really have time to sit down and talk when term is in session. i'm just a bit sad that christmas is over, because it is my favourite time of the year and it has passed all too quickly! ahh well! that's life.
Anyway, i have to go now to go to mass to thank god for this wonderful year, and to pray for the coming year
happy new year!
xxxxxx
more over, xmas was great too! i spent xmas in london, and had a great time, i truly enjoyed spending time with my parents since i dont really have time to sit down and talk when term is in session. i'm just a bit sad that christmas is over, because it is my favourite time of the year and it has passed all too quickly! ahh well! that's life.
Anyway, i have to go now to go to mass to thank god for this wonderful year, and to pray for the coming year
happy new year!
xxxxxx
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